Kripa Maharjan - Out
from the ash, I will reborn
An
aspiring writer and a poet, short stories and poems have always been my
companion, my muse and a form of meditation where I discover myself. I am a
medical student studying in third year.
Out from the ash, I will reborn
Like a seed fallen
onto the earth,
I fell into your
womb,
as an empty cell,
a mere existence,
yet to be moulded;
yet to be
nourished.
A void space, I
was
that you gradually
transformed into a paradise.
This pure space of
love rooted me into you,
protected me,
caressed me
and bonded me with
your soul.
There,
I evolved
My life dawned to
bloom inside your being
And my heart
started pulsating,
with every heart
beat of yours.
I still reminisce
of that pristine moment
The first breath
of my life inside your womb
And your first
touch over your belly
to feel me,
to caress me,
to connect to me.
Ahh! Such a spring
of joy; a festival it is,
to feel your
embrace to the deepest of my being,
to feel nourished
by your nectar
that flows into
every cell of mine.
An alchemist, you
are
And your love is
that alchemy
with which,
every ugly part in
me is metamorphosing into the beautiful
And I am growing,
gradually,
taking your shape,
radiating the
beauty of a girl.
The only
reflection of yours,
I, am growing.
But,
in this moment of
pristine silence,
the words still
echo around us.
“What if she’s a
sin?”
The words do not
cease
but point to me,
encircle me in
anguish,
and impeach me a
sin.
And tonight,
as I reside in the
paradise of your body,
dark; alone,
my cells are
gradually tearing apart
And I am withering,
gradually,
like the winter
leaves that are falling off a tree,
benumbed and
crippled by the coldness in between the words
like the sand
slipping off the fingers,
unable to behold
and protect but just let go.
Tomorrow, in the
cradle of the lord,
I will find
myself.
But mama,
Let not your plea
and cries be my lullaby tonight
Cause a phoenix, I
am
who utterly burnt
in the pyre and reduced to ashes
will once again
reborn out of the ash
Because we are a
single soul dwelling in two bodies
And I am rooted in
you,
as deathless and
timeless....